Successfully reformed
Zach is reformed from homosexuality.
It is a very happy thing, to believe that your sense of self was wrong, that it could be defined by the world, by your parents, by your counselors, by Christ's own love, so central in your life. He will be very happy. At this moment, he is very sure that he has no more emotions. He is very sure he can fall in love with a girl, like those girls on TV. How joyful, to look at how prettily she swings her head, and her hair play on her shoulder, her twin peaks, the curve, the love for her as ordained by God, brought about by first sight.
And God should well have predestined him to love her. The divinity there shapes his end, to be happily married with her, to raise four children, to have sixteen grandchildren--the joyful parents sending them off for a honeymoon to the Caribbean (if it still exists after the sea level rises)--he will be happy because he looks happy, so why then should his heart disrupt that countenance?
It is very easy to be brainwashed. I was at that vulnerable stage before, when I believed that I was going through a phase, that my feelings would somehow turn around. But every time I get a whiff of male pheromone, or a sight of some gorgeous tough-looking guy across the street, I was pained by my own sense of inadequacy . . . And all the opprobrium that I could feel for myself--that I also believed the world had for me--was well deserved.
No more. Enough. Monotheism marred all with this starting.
via G/E
It is a very happy thing, to believe that your sense of self was wrong, that it could be defined by the world, by your parents, by your counselors, by Christ's own love, so central in your life. He will be very happy. At this moment, he is very sure that he has no more emotions. He is very sure he can fall in love with a girl, like those girls on TV. How joyful, to look at how prettily she swings her head, and her hair play on her shoulder, her twin peaks, the curve, the love for her as ordained by God, brought about by first sight.
And God should well have predestined him to love her. The divinity there shapes his end, to be happily married with her, to raise four children, to have sixteen grandchildren--the joyful parents sending them off for a honeymoon to the Caribbean (if it still exists after the sea level rises)--he will be happy because he looks happy, so why then should his heart disrupt that countenance?
It is very easy to be brainwashed. I was at that vulnerable stage before, when I believed that I was going through a phase, that my feelings would somehow turn around. But every time I get a whiff of male pheromone, or a sight of some gorgeous tough-looking guy across the street, I was pained by my own sense of inadequacy . . . And all the opprobrium that I could feel for myself--that I also believed the world had for me--was well deserved.
No more. Enough. Monotheism marred all with this starting.
via G/E
posted by Alan at August 02, 2005
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